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Jan. 12th, 2006 | 06:17 pm
mood: mellowmellow
music: still POTC

oh just one more thing..

 

It's funny how you never know how independent you are until you realize you've lost the things that mean the most to you.

                                                                            jlp x ss x d

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Jan. 12th, 2006 | 06:06 pm
mood: productive
music: POTC on the TV

The thing about Old Forge is that you always get let down. There are very few people that you can count on, lean on, or depend on. If you ask someone for something at the end of the day they are selfish and let you down time after time. It's always the same, even if it's different. But the thing is that I'm learning to live with that. I'm learning that you have to pick your battles, and you have to understand that some people are just bad people. You can't change the past, you can only look forward, and live in this day. And that is what I'm going to do. Live each day, one by one.
There are so many people that make my life suck..but for all of those people there are other people, my friends, that make it all better.

I'm going to herkimer tomorrow woo woo for jenn's birthday..hopefully i'll see some peeps i haven't seen in a long time :)

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i have the most amazing friends..

Jan. 10th, 2006 | 06:17 pm
mood: pensivepensive
music: the cranberries

this weekend, my birthday weekend, Heather and Jill and people threw me a surprise birthday party and it made me soo sooo soo happy. I had soo much fun because Jenn, Ruby, Chris and Justin came up and we got a hotel room and hung out and had soo much fucking fun. I'm just sad that they're gone, but hopefully i'll see them again on friday becuase i'm pretty sure that I'm going down to herkimer for Jenn's birthday on FRIDAY THE 13TH (dun dun dunnn)...I'm really excited becuase I get to see Dan! omg i have missed him soo much! I love this because I am seeing all these people that I haven't seen in forever..which are some of the most important people to me. Yay!

 

I have some of the most amazing friends .
                         and
I have some of the shittiest friends.

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Dec. 30th, 2005 | 05:10 pm
mood: dirtydirty
music: journey

last night we watched a movie and ANNE laughed at every part that wasn't funny. I love hanging out with my friends even though ANNE is annoying. And, everyone agrees with me. I wish I got a new subaru forester for christmas. i hate heather and i hope she dies.

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sick sucks

Dec. 20th, 2005 | 02:45 pm
mood: sicksick
music: none

It's kind of funny, because everyone is sick.
Me being included in that 'everyone'.
I hate being sick, besides the fact that I get to stay home and do absolutely nothing. I have so much stuff that needs to be done..in school. arrghhh. I have to go tomorrow I'm pretty sure. I only have 2 more days until I don't have to go to school for 10 days. woop woop.

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Holiday Ball..I am currently running on 2.5 hours of sleep.

Dec. 18th, 2005 | 11:42 am
mood: tiredtired
music: no speakers

So how about the holiday ball was absolutely amazing. Even though it was in in aux gym, i think it looked absolutely beautiful. I think that all my girls looked gorgeous, all the guys very handsome,  and i had a fucking lot of fun. I am so happy that Tricia, John and JD came. I love and miss all of them very very very very much. It was like a tease of summer, and i really miss summer. I had so much fun at the Holiday Ball..I think it might have been the best yet, minus my date situation. I was a lil bummed out about it, but i didn't let it ruin my night. And...in the hotel we had a lot of fun. John, Heather, Jill and Nacho running through the halls *wink wink* and john mysteriously having no shirt in the morning..hmmm. What a great night. I miss White Trailer, and I miss summer nights. Hopefully from now on, it'll be easier though. Seeing them made it better, b ecause that means only...6 months until they come back..hopefully we'll see them before that though. :( ahhh it all went by way way way too fast. It's really only been 4ish months since we've seen Tricia..and it felt like a bajillion years. It's really sad. Anyways...I'm not gonna wish away time...but i can't wait for the summer.  Our last summer. The Summer.

In the summer everything is right.

18th birthday: January 6th. ..that's in 19 days.
Christina & I want a joint birthday party..yes we're asking for one, because we know that no one will do it. So basically we're going to have to throw it ourselves..but that's what you get. It needs to be Saturday, January 7th. so if you feel it in your heart that you would like to throw 2 non white girls a birthday party, i think that we would be really happy.--Isn't it sad that i have to ASK for my own freaking birthday party? I think it is.

Graduation is June 23rd...187 days until graduation
that means 187 days until
summer.

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a completely and udderly desperate plea...

Nov. 29th, 2005 | 08:45 pm
mood: distresseddistressed
music: underoath

I really think it's sort of funny that people "steal" other people's friends so that they can brag about how much fun they have with them.

I've decided that I don't really hate old forge...its just that i'v ebene having a really tough couple of weeks because of everything that's going on..or everything that's not, rather. I used to have soo much fun all the time with everyone, and now i feel completely neglected like there's no one there for me to hang out with, or even talk to. The only people that I ever hang out with are Heather and Jill and i love love love them, but its just not the same with only them. and i just don't know why people don't want to hang out with us!!!! ...

Reasons Why You Should Hang Out WIth Us:

1. heather dances sometimes

2. jill has 21 year olds and is hot

3. i am funny and like to have fun

4. we take showers!! we're clean people!!!

5. WE ARE FUN PEOPLE WHO NEVER HAVE ANYTHING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND!!!

6. I'm going to kill myself if the weekends don't get better! :(

and that's my plea for someone to take us in and start having fun with us, because senior year for me has been sucky the last few weeks..I feel like i'm wasting senior year, and that needs to stop very soon.

I JUST WANT TO HAVE FUN!!!!

I love fun!!! FUN IS MY FRIEND!!

 

 

 

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I am becoming ok with the fact that I am alone...

Nov. 27th, 2005 | 08:44 pm
mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
music: Jacks Mannequin // I'm Ready

 

im gettin my senior pics done tomorrow...so no school for me woop woop.

Hm....I have learned this weekend that you really can't rely on anyone but yourself.

I really can't wait until this year is over..because as you probably know, 06 just does it better.

 

I can't wait to get out of here. This place is driving me crazy.

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Nov. 8th, 2005 | 08:37 pm
mood: hyperhyper
music: The Future Freaks Me Out / Motion City Soundtrack

I'm really sick of all the bull shit that's been going on lately here. It's our senior year and we are having a lot of drama and it really needs to stop. People need to stop doing stupid shit, and buck the fuck up and deal with things. I'm so sick of all the drama and the backstabbing and the fact that I walk through the halls of school hoping not to see certain people so that I don't have to be reminded of all the gay shit that's going on. Every one of the seniors seriously needs to realize that this is it...this is our last chance. We've been having more drama this year than we did last year..or the years past. Honestly, everyone just needs to pull their heads out of their asses and realize that this is it, and we really need to be independent and not worry what everyone thinks. Know who your real friends are and have fun with them instead of worrying about what people who you don't even like, are thinking. Why is all this change occuring? Why does everyone feel the need to change everything when this is our last chance to enjoy it?

Think about this right now: What are you going to do when graduation rolls around and you are regretting the entire year? Who are you going to turn to when you've ditched all your real friends for your 'once-in-a-while' friends?.. What I've been thinking about lately is how I really don't want any regrets when this is all over...I want to remember my senior year in high-school as the year that everything went right, not wrong...the year that i became closer with my friends, not the year that we stopped being friends. I want to remember my senior year as something great, not something terrible. I'm going to live it up, have fun, and not worry about stupid shit. I don't wanna worry about what other people think of me, I'm not gonna go doin things to piss people off, and im not gonna stab anyone in the back. I'm going to learn, grow, help, and be free. I want to love everyone, and I want to be loved the same way. I think everyone should think about this. But also I want everyone to konw that I'm going to make memories and be happy. I don't want anyone to rain on my parade. I'm going to use this last year to become closer to my friends, and be happy for once. Live one day at a time, and not expect too much out of certain people...because lately i've learned that you can't always count on anyone...even people that are closest to you. I don't want to be judged and I don't want to judge anyone. Im just gonna keep having fun and everyone else can just suck it. ..Just like mine, jenns and heathers philosophy: EVERYONE IS GAY EXCEPT FOR US.

and can I jsut say that I love Elizabeth L. H. T. Russell? Of course I can! and you wanan know why? Because this is MY journal!! so suck it bitches!! and also...

I love Amanda L. J. Harwood...a lot .

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For the first time in my life I can honestly say that I HATE this place...

Nov. 8th, 2005 | 08:00 pm
mood: uncomfortableuncomfortable
music: Jimmy Fallon / Idiot Boyfriend

I'm really sick of all the bull shit that's been going on lately here. It's our senior year and we are having a lot of drama and it really needs to stop. People need to stop doing stupid shit, and buck the fuck up and deal with things. I'm so sick of all the drama and the backstabbing and the fact that I walk through the halls of school hoping not to see certain people so that I don't have to be reminded of all the gay shit that's going on. Every one of the seniors seriously needs to realize that this is it...this is our last chance. We've been having more drama this year than we did last year..or the years past. Honestly, everyone just needs to pull their heads out of their asses and realize that this is it, and we really need to be independent and not worry what everyone thinks. Know who your real friends are and have fun with them instead of worrying about what people who you don't even like, are thinking. Why is all this change occuring? Why does everyone feel the need to change everything when this is our last chance to enjoy it? Think about this right now: What are you going to do when graduation rolls around and you are regretting the entire year? Who are you going to turn to when you've ditched all your real friends for your 'once-in-a-while' friends?..
What I've been thinking about lately is how I really don't want any regrets when this is all over...I want to remember my senior year in high-school as the year that everything went right, not wrong...the year that i became closer with my friends, not the year that we stopped being friends. I want to remember my senior year as something great, not something terrible. I'm going to live it up, have fun, and not worry about stupid shit. I don't wanna worry about what other people think of me, I'm not gonna go doin things to piss people off, and im not gonna stab anyone in the back. I'm going to learn, grow, help, and be free. I want to love everyone, and I want to be loved the same way. I think everyone should think about this. But also I want everyone to konw that I'm going to make memories and be happy. I don't want anyone to rain on my parade. I'm going to use this last year to become closer to my friends, and be happy for once. Live one day at a time, and not expect too much out of certain people...because lately i've learned that you can't always count on anyone...even people that are closest to you. I don't want to be judged and I don't want to judge anyone. Im just gonna keep having fun and everyone else can just suck it.

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