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Apr. 16th, 2006 | 10:47 pm
mood: lonelylonely
music: Death Cab For Cutie // Title & Registration

days in old forge are starting to blur together.
its sad because i don't even konw what day 
it is ...i've been so unbelieveably miserable 
its hard to even be excited at the fact that i
only have 1 more week before i have to go back 
to that hell hole they call school. Its sad though,
because i would honestly rather be in school
than home doing nothing.  I feel like such a bum
but honestly there's nothing for me to do
besides sit around and be how i am. 
this vacation is so stupid because its just made 
everything stink. 

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Apr. 14th, 2006 | 09:27 pm
mood: lazylazy

I guess it's luck but it's the same
Hard luck you've been trying to tame
Maybe it's love but it's like you said
"Love is like a role that we play"


But I believe in you so much
I could die for the words that you say
But i believe in you so much
I could die from the words that you say


But you're chasing the ghost of a good thing
Haunting yourself as the real thing
Is getting away from you again
While you're chasing ghosts


I guess it's luck but it's the same
Hard luck you've been trying to tame
Maybe it's love but it's like you said
"Love is like a role that we play"


But I believe in you so much
I could die for the words that you say
But i believe in you so much
I could die from the words that you say


But you're chasing the ghost of a good thing
Haunting yourself as the real thing
Is getting away from you again
While you're chasing ghosts


Just bend the pieces till they fit
Like they were made for it
But they weren't meant for this
No they weren't meant for this


Just bend the pieces till they fit
Like they were made for it
But they weren't meant for this


Chasin' the ghost of a good thing
Haunting yourself as the real thing
Is getting away, away, away, away from you again

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Apr. 12th, 2006 | 07:32 pm
mood: lazylazy
music: BRIGHT EYES // Lover I Don't Have To Love

soo..
Poughkeepsie wasn't all
it was cracked up to be
but we made it work.
We went to a dance club and 
then to a party with Dubie
Peck which was surprisingly fun.
I thought Marist was very
nice too, but I really dind't feel
like I fit in well. Maybe it
was just because I was only there 
for the weekend, or maybe it
was just becuase the people 
didnt like me, or we just didn't
have things in common. Who knows?
but either way it was still fun..and
nice to get out of old forge.
PLUS -- being in Poughkeepsie &
sleeping on the streets with people 
poking me with no food, and no blankets
would be better than
being in Old Forge RIGHT NOW.
its so beat. THANK god its my last
spring break like this. yay I get to go 
to Albany // The Boonies with anne
&&& mini- Niffy. Should be interesting.


I can't fucking wait until June 23rd.

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Apr. 5th, 2006 | 05:31 pm
mood: disappointeddisappointed
music: Guttermouth // Lipstick

Everyone should be REALLY jealous of me & anne
because we are going to POUGHKEEPSIE to see
a girl who has big boobs, and you guys are going 
to places like FLORIDA & PUERTO RICO!
you guys should DEFINATELY kill yourselves..and 
be jealous of anne & i because we are so incredibly lucky
to be able to stay in old forge for all of spring break
AND BE COOL!!!! yess.

THIS DAY IS ABSOLUTELY TERRIBLE

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just breathe...

Apr. 4th, 2006 | 08:20 pm
mood: angryangry


high up above or down below
when you're too in love to let it go
but if you never try, you'll never know
just what you're
worth
lights
will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you
.  
©

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Apr. 3rd, 2006 | 08:03 pm
mood: tiredtired
music: No Doubt // Bath Water

I'm going to Poughkeepsie this weekend
which is the absolute only traveling
I'll be doing this spring break
so we have to make the best of it.

I really hate daylight savings time...
I think its stupid because im tired all of the time..
but oh well..can't really stop the earth
from turning on an axis now can we?
THANK GOD FOR SPIRIT WEEK.
If it wasn't spirit week, i would probably
be really pissed, because the thought
of having to go to school 5 days in a row
for 7 hours and 6 minutes pretty much makes
me want to gouge my eyes out.
Its good that its almost spring break, finally..
because the end of spring break means that
we get to go to BALDWINSVILLE and visit
our favorite boys in the worldddd.
There are 2 people in my life right now
that sometimes I just want to hit them..
they are so annoying, and they deserve to get hit,
but you can't really do that, because you 
feel so sorry for them. They aren't my friends
or anything, but one of them tries to hang out wtih 
me and my friends all the time, and we hate them
and the other one is just relaly annoying.
UURGH. just had to get that out.
Other than that though, everything's been great.
its a huge change for me to be so happy all the time,
but i really love it, and I think its better for me
because im more fun now, I think. :)

YAY FOR POUGHKEEPSIE ON SATURDAY
it should be very interestingggggg



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soco amaretto lime

Apr. 2nd, 2006 | 01:01 am
mood: refreshedrefreshed
music: Mary Without Sound // Motion City Soundtrack

My life lately has been pretty eventful.
I've been expanding my horizons.
I've been meeting a lot of new people
and becoming good friends with people
that i actually used to hate.
I am pretty sure I understand exactly what
senioritis is now. I go to school so that I can do nothing.
Even with only 2 study halls a day I feel like im just wasting
everything away. But even though the weekdays
kill me, the weekends seem to be getting better
and better. The weather is clearing up too
which is a very good thing. 
Just yesterday it was about 70 degrees and beautiful out.
The sky was blue all day with a nice sunshine and last night
there were no stars, but it was about as nice as it could have
been without them. It rained today but i love the rain 
so i really can't complain. Spring is definately here
and it is lifting my spirits just as much as it does
every year when it comes. Winter was nice, but its time for a change.
June 23rd is coming and its coming fast.
at first I was a little unsure if i was ready
but the closer I get, the more anxious I get.
I kind of feel like I've been waiting for that day
forever. Which, really I have, but I didn't really realize it until now.
Its funny how those things happen. 

© the rain...

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Feb. 20th, 2006 | 11:40 pm
mood: frustratedfrustrated
music: fuck you

This Weekend = Very good...

Chris Vecc & his gang came up including the always popular Dale boys, Ryan and Zach, and 2 new ones. We went up to his camp and had a lot of fun on saturday night..Friday night was beat because there was wind out like I've never seen and Jared Moon got hit by a tree and broke his back. Anyways...We went to Chris's camp and had a lot of fun on Saturday night, and on Sunday night we went to the EB house with a whole bunch of ppl which was fun/not fun at the same exact time. It's good to be drama free, but also it sucks when things suck, ironically. my tonsilitis is going away which is pretty nice, and im pretty sure i don't have mono. 

The winter is really getting old quick. How many more weeks do we have to bare this bare cold and intense boredom. It's starting to get to me. Really. Im getting stressed because I pretty much just hate everyone and want to kill everyone every minute of the day. It's actually kind of sad in a way. Someone pulled my hair the other night. I think that I am going to quit writing in this journal...possibly not forever, but for a pretty long time I think...I think its just a little to open.

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Jan. 16th, 2006 | 07:57 pm
mood: creative
music: Riding In Cars With Boys on TV

Ok so how about I had such an amazing weekend.

Friday:
I went to herkimer for the night to visit jenn for her birthday. I had soo much fun. Dancing on the stoop to imaginary music at 3 A.M. and talking about how stupid guys are. We attended a family birthday party and got to meet her GramGram and aunts and stuff and watched movies and hung out. "Ya wanna AAHHHM wrastle? If ya win, I'll let you cut my hayuh." haha crazy crab guy was sooo weird/ funny. Too bad Prick kicked him out. He was the life of the party, sadly. It was soo fun, and its always great to be at the browns house. Of course i got to see danny boy which was good. I love the brown family and their house and mostly their hot daughter, Jennifer L Brown.

Saturday:
Basically, I slept in and sat around all day. Then Nacho, Jill and Heather came over and we basically talked about all of the people who make our lives so miserable. It was really nice just to sit around for a night, and not do anyhthing too active, especially after our kinda late night, the night before at jenn's. We also called Justin and Alex and pranked them with the sound boards on ebaumsworld.com. Alex wasn't that great, but Justin was sooooo sooo funny. "I know that...That's from Tommy Boy!!..Please don't ruin the movie for me, please." haha justin is such a cutie i love that kid.

Sunday:
We made a trip to Utica/Verona for the entire day which was i guess the highlight of the weekend. We went to Utica to old navy, then to Veronaish to try to surprise John by going to his house. It ended up that we wasted like an entire tank of gas tryhing to find his house, and ending up on the opposite end of Germany Road, stopped for directions twice, and finally gave up and had to ask john how to get there. We went out to eat at Denny's in Oneida, and then went over to the Casino, for mine, and the girls' first time. it was sooo funny because john is the only one that gambled and we had no idea what was going on. Ana Maria was so scared that we were going to get caught that every time a security person came near us, she would say "lets go" and we would like walk away from them. Then we tried going back to Utica from Verona which took about an hour and a half because we got lost. Not a bad lost, a good lost. It was so much fun and we went to Wal*mart. I bought a whole bunch of stuff. Then we went home and watched a movie at jills and watched her big fish eat her little fish. Also, in Verona I bought my first legal drugs which was fun.

Monday:
We made BANANA PANCAKES!! woo woo. I lvoe banana pancakes, did I ever tell you that? We basically sat around all day again, and made food, went to the store...did a bunch of fun stuff. Then we made food, and did mine and Anne's hair. that was basically the entire day, in a nutshell. I hope next weekend is as fun as this weekend was, or i just might start cutting myself again.

 

Friends help you move. REAL friends help you move BODIES!! muah h aha
^stole that one from Jenny B.

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i've been waiting so long to hear from you...

Jan. 14th, 2006 | 05:06 pm
mood: lonelylonely
music: daphne loves derby

Please
Tell me how you lift these heavy bricks
And how you built this path for me to walk on
You carve yourself in stones
With the strength of all convinced
But I know your skin
Is still as thin as mine..

What does it take to believe
In all the things you believe?
And maybe I need to listen more carefully

I finally know how you stand
against the worst there is

You enjoy coffee and Debussy
I can't believe the calmness in your bones
After everything
And when she dreams
She sees herself in her Sunday dress
Humming simple melodies
She's known since she was only three

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